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Wednesday, 19 July 2006

  • ..something that changed my life...

    this day started out normal..you know, stuff...research LQ...and stuff like that...had only just 10 minutes of chinese, and 15 minutes of english...researcH took 10 minutes of math, and math took 10 minutes of chem...gosh, we had...science-math-science...eh split classes kmi..tpos bsta...this day, like any other 30-minute period day, was crammed all in a half day.

    what has made an impact on me was when i was on the way home...i was doing the normal stuff i do, look out of the window...and stare at anything that i'll be able to see...when suddenly, i saw a cute young boy...about 3 and a half feet tall...he was covered with dirt, and he was naked...i dont exactly know what was happenening and what he was doing...then, her mother caMe, and she just SLAPPED him..not the soft slaps..this one was hard...like a padre damaso slap, or the slap seen in the movie, the color purple..the boy just cried helplessly, and he quickly ran to his father..hRmm..i shall not judge the mother because i dont know what was happening, but i felt very thankful at that time...i'm clothed; i'm sheltered;im living a life full of satisfaction...

    and then again, i tRied forgetting about that incident na...when i saw another scene..this was more touching, more of what i wanna be when i grow older.  i saw a couple, they were quite old...60? 70?...but for the whole time they had to cross the streets, they never let each other's hands go...then i thought that yeah...maybe that's what i want to happen to me forever...the beauty of each person will soon turn to freckles and stretch marks and "signs of agin"..but "love doesnt fade thru time..."  

    two things i've learned today...extraordinary...i found more meaning into my life...

    and now, i am going to make my SLL, and i will also study for the quizzes tomorrow, chem and noli...

Tuesday, 18 July 2006

  • the misfortunes in life...

    OMG third year is really bugging me...:( i made a pact to myself and to God last year that i'd really try harder, and harder this year...and i am...i just dont know why it's so hard to get the grades i want to have...=( im failing chem...it was a good thing that i got a 38 in the LQ, if not, i'd probably be really dead...=(...im also disliking my scores in filipino...to think that i had actually read and understood the book beforehand...hayy, geom hates me...160/5=13...doodles, i cant even get the correct quotient of these two...the rest of my quizzes in geom are all 9, except for one 10...and the LQ a while ago is making me a bit more worried...

    we have a reasearch LQ tomorrow...gahd...and im just starting now, 9:11pm...gosh, haha :) who told me to sleep from 5-6:30? huh? lolz..

    hRmm the coc3s are currently having our 'rehab'...LOL...it's hard to have a rehabilitation you know...you're so used to this then bigla you have to change your ways...haha...

    im also dislike the stress that junior year gives me...omgosh, there hasnt been a day when i would be able to sleep at 9 or 10...it's always 12,1,2...and worst case scenario: day before chem LQ...slept at 1:30, woke up at 3AM...gosh, i was dead tired that day..

    there are also certain problems around me...i cant really write it down here since it's quite personal...=|

    oh, and btw, im having my days together with counsel by october...bsta we're the 4th batch this year...ooooooohh...

    galaxies and diapers are killing me once more...they've become bigger and stinkier...lol...=(

    im also hating the way that i cant be exempted in PE even though im a cheerdancer...oh gosh, and speaking of cheerdance, 100% we're gonna cram, cram and cram! last year, we started a bit early, but we still had to cram...panu na ngayon? wla pa kmi nagagawa? *blink*

Monday, 17 July 2006

  • hating it

    how shall i start? hRmmm..basically, we have a geom LQ tomorrow :(( and a research lq on wednesday :((  im really starting to hate third year now :( i mean, there's just 2 out of 10 things that are great in third year...the rest sucks...

Monday, 10 July 2006

  • giving it up...

    i shouldve never wanted it so much...and now it hurts a lot when people dont think im capable of being "it"

    i promised myself that it'd be okay...but i really cant...i really cant say it's fine with me...to have everyone say that i don't deserve it and someone else does...=(

    i must understand that i cant have everything i want...i must, i must...or else i'll suffer...

    im kind of expecting that it won't go to me after all...everyone expects differently...then might as well give it to her...

    im not gonna fight her coz she deserves it more than i do...because she's my friend...=) dont worry, even if it's not gonna be fine with me, nothing's gonna change, i promise...

    im giving it up...

Wednesday, 21 June 2006

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